~Lindsay Nichole~

So lets see! hmm.. I dont' even remember when i updated last! But I got my hair cut today! I really like it! Hopefully it makes me look older!! I am so tired of looking like i am 12 with big boobs lol :) So work at 745 ugh! Long day cuz after work wich will end up being like 5 I am suppose to do dinner with tony :) Hopefully everything works out this week and we can actually go! I am going to the tbs concert on thursday.. that should be good friggin times :) anyway then on friday Missy and I leave for the wonderful weekend at the Lake! This weekend is going to be badd ass!! Suprise b~day party for the sister 40th i might add! Yep were playin Beer Pong. my mom has already challenged missy~ haha... then we have the boat parade and of course the hours on the jet ski and pontoon just drinkin and soakin up the sun :) and we obviously can't forget the name game!! Holy shit... linday lohan thats a good you, you should say it 5 more times... lmfao! anyway ok have a goodnight i love comments so leave me some biotches :) Love you night :)

Goodness! Where to start... So I really just didn't do much this weekend! Friday night i started reading my book again!I love the JJ book everytime i read that thing i catch something new!Sat. I layed out all day and just chilled! Today I went shopping with missy I found an amazing pair of Steve Maddens that i wanted so bad but they were a lil pricey for todays adventure I am kinda broke! But I did manage to buy the Cosmo Water Kama Sutra book and a Pam Anderson Book. So I didn't talk to tony all weekend and honestly.. i don't know what is going on with him. it isn't like him to not return my phone calls at all! but whatever I am sure i'll talk to him again someday! Maybe when I get his shirt I ordered for him from AE. The one he just had to have so being the nice person i am i went and had them order it cuz they didnt' have it in the store! I don't know anymore! I am so tired of crying everynight because i am not good enough for him... I don't know what to do anymore! I have tried to change myself so much just to be the right person and I guess no matter how much i try to change and how much I try I am never gonna be the girl he wants to be with. I dont' know what else to do and I dont' wanna give up but I think I am at the point where I am gonna have to! I mean I don't want to.. I just wish i was that girl! anyway I am gonna go now i guess.. I am gonna get goin i guess!! Hope ya'll have a super night! Love ya :) Maybe I'll update later tonight :)

Its Friday NIght! Finally ~ Only worked till 11:30 am today! But def. WEnt to the camp coleman tent sale and stocked on some bad ass stuff for 4th of july weekend! I can't wait!!! I got Missy, Ta and MYself some flow in the dark cup cozy things yep they float too! Thats bad ass! Not sure what us badass ladies are doing this eveing but hopefully something super duper fun :) We'll drive around until we do find something to do if we have to haha!! I def. hope Tony calls me tonight I miss him its been 2 1/2 weeks since I saw him and I am having serious withdrawls (as he would say lol haha) Missy and I went to dinner last night with papa and Steve! That was interesting! Hopefully things dont' stay too weird! Anyway I just got out of the shower so I am gonna go get dressed and Hopefully Missy is out of work by now and she will call soon! I just called her like 10 min ago at work because there was just 2 bank robberies in our area! One was at a Lasalle in Bridgeport and one was at a TCF In BV.. damn good areas too.. The Lasalle was right by our National City in Bridgeport! Alright well Missy just called so gonna jet :)

So i am just sitting at work right now.. yep in drive thru! I am sooooo bored!!! Yea so last night was drama Fest 2006!!! I frigging hate drama but what i hate more is feeling like everyone is better than me... I can do is think of what could be... I can't even stand it! All I want is to be with him and I know it isn't going to happen.. you can't make someone fall in love with you and you can't make somoene want to be with you! i can only let him know how I feel and thats the most I can do right! I just got back from lunch and I spent the majority of it in american eagle trying to find tony this shirt he wants. why do i do stuff for people i don't even know! anyway they didnt' have it cuz i guess its super popular so i had them call some other stores and stuff and we finally found one!! so its getting sent to my house :) I called him and told him he is lucky i love him so much cuz i spent my lunch trying to find this shirt! ugh well i don't know! I am gonna go back to work for a few so i'll post later! :)

ok so... here is the last couple days

Yesterday afternoon Missy and her mom and I went to her Papi's in Linden and then we just hung out in the Lake and chilled till about 4 because Tony and I were suppose to go do dinner... Well then he was like ask Missy if she wants to go and then Adam can come and we can all go or whatever so we decide to all go to Buffalo Wild Wings and then Cold Stone.. Yum... Well Missy had originally had plans with Ta but they got cancelled then Ta called and had a problem and so I just told Missy to go ahead and go and Maybe Tony and I would just go back to the original Plan of going to Genji and what not.. so I called and He decided yea no we'll just do it tomorrow (today) So ok whatever we decide we'll go to Genji today whatever... So I sat at home all night and played solitaire god my life is wonderful..

Today there was a killer storm this morning and it woke me up at like 8 or so.. so I got online and did the usual morning beaking on myspace whatever.. I got ready to go to work.. Then I went to work and it was slow as fuck!!! So i did some texting and shit and then everyone got Pizza and I ate like 2 pieces and Thought I was gonna die.. thats the most I have ate in like a week or so.. So whatever.. Then I called Tony and I was like what time are we gona do dinner so i can make sure i stop at the bank and all that good shit~ He says yea i can't go i have to help my dad tonight.. so fuck that! Yea I fucked it up yesterday but I thought for sure we would go today.. whatever! I am now sitting here waiting for Missy to get done with her movie with her mom cuz I just really need to fucking vent! I am so sick and tired of feeling like i am walked over and Nobody fucking cares about how i feel! Anyway Missy just got out of the Movie... So whatever I'll Just fucking update later!

Peace Out~

Here is some quotes and shit... Yea I am bored..

*look at her, she's so pretty*
*with her perfect smile, cute outfits, and hair*
*but none of that matters to her*
*because he doesn't even care.*


just when i let you go
you seem to come back...
your screwing with my mind..

Laugh too much, and Love like you've never been hurt.

hes the kind of guy you could flirt with
and talk to him like hes your best friend

so i`m the girl that will put her head
on your shoulder - no, not to cry, just to
be a little closer to you

I cant pretend I don’t care
When you don’t think about me.

Nothing seems to be
And nothing tastes as sweet
As what I cant have


im falling so fast, and hoping this lasts.
dont hurt me, dont break me. just love
me back

I'm going to try my hardest to keep him in my life cuz hes the best thing thats ever happened to me!!!!

When you feel like giving up on someone. . . .
remember why you held on for so long

i'm just curious,
but have you ever thought of me
as much as I do about you?

who knows?
maybe one day,
we'll fall in love

*of Course we all know who those are about right*
Having a rough night.. so i'll probably update later on tonight

I had the worst weekend ever! Where do I begin?

Friday Night started off amazing! Ta Missy and I went to Red Lobster I am not a big Fan of sea food so I ordered Fish and yea I took a diet pill so i wasn't real hungry anyway! So all I ended up eating was my Salad anyway... WE went back to my house Missy's Bro brought over some beer and drank with us for a lil while Then the Dance party Started! I talked to tony and then the night kinda went like a rollercoaster! I told him he was being kinda mean..( I am at work can't swear lol) so then he hung up on me! that mad me a little upset so then I just drank more! As I proceeded to just chug beers I realized I was wasted! Missy was gonna jump in the pool fully clothed and kept asking me if she was gonna drown if she did! and i said yes so she should get out!! She did! Then we went inside to find Ta! She was myspace beaking and that was fun! So we sat upstairs and had a lil dance party I was dancing with the pole to the steamer! Then Missy and I went back outside at this time I had my bathing suit on and I jumped in the pool and Jumped back out! Then Missy's Brother and his friend came over and we played some bean bag game! They set up spot lights in my back yard! Missy and I sucked! so that game was short!! Then we just chilled on the back porch for a lil while then about 2 am everyone went home and I went to bed because I had to be up to go to work at 8! Well when morning rolled around I wasn't getting out of bed! I called Missy and she being the best friend in the world went into work for me... I was suppose to go to my nephews graduation party in Grand Rapids but I couldn't move! I didn't crawl out of bed till about 5 pm for the first time! Then I slept till about 10 then I went to missy's but my dad had yelled at me before that so I was upset so he called missy and told her i was upset just to warn her he said. so then i was super mad and just drove around for an hour and complained to missy! God she is such a good friend!!! WEll sunday Missy and I went to her Granpas on Byram lake and we went out in this dingy thing and that was fun cuz we can't paddle and we tried! so then it started raining and it was just a blast! We swam and stuff!!! Her grandpas friends were buzzin so that was fun! I killed some bee's in the barn and stuff!

yea... so i am so sick and tired of not being good enough... I don't know what it is going to take for me to be just the perfect person for him.... I know people tell me constantly lindsay why are you settling.. but for me I dont'feel like i am settling.. i don't know i feel like thats the one person who i am so much alike.. and we have so much in common.. i miss talking to him every night for hours like we use to do and just being able to call him whenever i need someone to talk to... I know i have the best friends in the world and they are always there for me but i don't know! I am done for now I am at work so I'll update later on :)

Lindsay

So missy and I then after laying out went over to papas house and went and ate chinese and then we went to ziggys and then i called adam and tony to see what they were up to and adam said they were going to cold stone creamery and Missy I thought was gonna have a heart attack! So we then drove to Fenton to get Missy more ice cream so that was 2 within an hour! Priceless!! So Yea... Got home and called tony! That was great until I opened my big mouth and told him I told Mike a secret then I felt super duper bad and I was like omg the last person in the world i want mad at me is Tony!!! So yea! I called him back after our wonderful talk and I was like ton I am so sorry that I did that blah blah blah.... Yea so I read him bits and pieces of the prior entry.... Ok well I am at work and doing this illegally so i'll post monday! Lots of Love~ Nympho Linzo

Wow....Just got home talking to tony! OH MY GOD!!! So i told him about my livejournal and he was like what does it say... so i read a few lines to him... anyway.. so about my wonderful fucking day! Got up went to work I was in fucking drive thru! I hate that shit.. oh well went and did some shoppin on vs.com and shit so yea! Came Home early and Missy came over and we layed out in the pool... phone is goin dead post later love ya

yea so life has been crazy went on a couple of dates but still comparing every single one to tony i am not really sure what the fuck is up with me! pretty sure i just need to meet a really really fucking hot guy and i just need to fuck em! how terrible does that sound omg! what is a girl gonna do!

but yea so i went on a date with James last night it was alot of fun! We went to Bravo in Rochester! He is a super nice guy! I'll def. see him again!

Went out with Brian one night last week but he is still so caught up on Michelle I am not even getting into that! I love Michelle and There is no fucking way I am stepping on anyones toes! Besides she is amazing and there is no way I would do that to her!

But I totally Miss having someone to just lay in bed with and cuddle and feel like a million bucks! I like the way tony makes me feel amazing when we are together but I also hate the way he doesn't have feelings for me. but we are just friends and its cool lke that! I love him being my Best Friend! He is amazing! anyway I am out like a light :) Love you all

ok so i haven't updated this in like a yeaR ! SO ALOT HAS HAPPEND! Me and caleb broke up yada yada yada! Been hanging with missy, ta and some other awesome people! My Girlfriend2 Rachel Freed! She is amazing! Papa Boobs! Ugly! Steve ya know the list goes on! Then there is Tony.... and all of tony's friends! Adam,Jason,Mike and Matt.Yea so anyone who knows me doesn't need the 411 on that so lets just jump into today!

Today I worked the longest 5 hour shift imaginable! Came home and went to Papa's house with Missy cuz he is leaving for Florida like Wed.Went and got some Chinese, Drove by the G~spot and saw Mike, Jason and Adam chillin there haha. Umm... Talked to my GF2 I miss her and Love her very Much! GF Misses and loves her 2! Talked to Ug cuz I miss him 2!

This weekend is going to be Amazing! Missy and GF2 are commin to the lake with me! and were gonnna see E and Kevin and then E's friends from Livonia! I miss all my Lake friends I haven't hung with them in like 2 Years!! Boner,Bogangles,Sperm,Tex,Trav,Evan, wow who am I missing! I don't know there is way to many of my lake friends I miss! and of course the most is E(Lindsey Renee Powell) lol! Ok well thats gonna be a blast cuz i love my Girlfriends and can't wait to have them meet my fucking Awesome Family! Missy Knows em all but GF2 Doesn't so that will be great! I can't wait to see all my cousins! Hopefully my dad will put sally in the water cuz I wanna ride her so bad!!! Hopefully the rest of the boats will go in this weekend too! Ok well this is gettin long so i promise I will update more now!!

Love you all and Goodnight! :)

In The Beginning.....
Who are you: Lindsay Nichole Wilson
Where are you from: Birch Run Michigan
Birthday: November 12th
Are you tired of answering those same 3 questions in every quiz u take? No
Why did you decide to take THIS quiz: I am bored

*How do you feel about.....
Homosexuals: I dont mind
Heterosexuals: I am one
Bisexuals: Umm Fuckin Decide
Christians: umm i believe in God
Pagans: ummm
Harry Potter fans: Scary Shit
anime: don't get it
Star Trek: stupid shit
Buffy The Vampire Slayer: stupid
Friends: I love friends
Will & Grace: I think it is cute
Religion: I don't get it
Politics: I don't understand it all the time
Gay Marriage: GET ER DONE
Straight Marriage: GET ER DONE
Marriage in General: I can't wait until my wedding day Its gonna be great when I find someone who loves me enough to spend their life with me
Disney Movies: I love em they are awesome
Diet Soda: Its tight
Music Piracy (MP3 File Sharing): I dig it
Is Christina Aguilera a slut?: kinda she portrays that image.
Is Britney Spears a slut?: I kinda think so but who knows
Did Janet intentionally let her boob flop out?: yep i would have too
Did Michael molest those kids?:probably
Did O.J. do it?: Yep
If you had to star in a same-sex love scene, who'd it be with?: Jenna Jameson fo so
opposite-sex love scene, who would it be?: My Boyfriend Caleb
Who's your favorite actor?: umm... i don't know
Who's your favorite actress?: don't know.
Favorite Musician or band?: way to many
Favorite author?: I don't read
Favorite stand-up comedian?: I don't know
Favorite athlete?: BEN BEN... GET IT STARTED!!!!
Favorite model?: who knows
Favorite Talk Show host?: Howard Stern

*More about you.....
Are you single or are you taken?: Taken fo so I love my man
What do you do in your spare time?: Chill with my Super Dupper Boyfriend Caleb! Chillin at Jills Crib, Goin to the bucks and shit
What are your creative outlets?: umm i have none
Do you have a webpage?: Live Journal
Do you read/write fanfic/slash?: umm.... no
What is in your CD player right now?: J.Lo
What is the last TV show you watched?: Pistons Fo Sho
What is the last thing u said out loud?: What the fuck...
last thing you ate?: Taco Bell
last thing you drank?: Mountain Dew
What are you wearing right now?: Pink beater and jeans
What do u lie awake thinking about at night?: how much i love caleb
How many pillows do u have on your bed?: one
How many things are there in you room that have to be plugged in?: Alot
How long have u lived at your current place of residence?: 17 years
What (if any) jewelry do u always wear?: my class ring
Do you have any tattoos?: yep gettin another one tomorrow
Do you have any piercings?: ears

*Social Life......
Where do you like to hang out the most?: my house,The lake, Caleb's and the girlies house's
Are you usually the designated driver?: no tasha is... the drunk driver she drives super when she is drunk
Do you drink?: sometimes
Do you smoke?: no.
Do you do drugs?: no.
Do you dance at clubs?:Myrtle Beach Mother Fletchers and The Freaky Tiki Fo Sho
Do you talk during movies?: oh ya know me.....
What is your favorite restaurant?: Bennigans All the way

*Favorite......
Pop Princess: The beautiful Blonde J. Simpson
Boy Band: ummm... none
Rocker Chick: umm how about i don't know
Rapper?: hmmm... I have many

Color?: pretty in pink
Food?: hmm turkey o tool
Drink?: starbucks shit


Well everyone have a wonderful night... I love you Jill and Jenny have a goodnight girlies!!! I love you so much Caleb Edward Johnson you ae my <3

So today was a bitch i am watching the pistons game right now with tit tit and missy. They are winning WOW!!!! I spent the most of the day with jill!!! I heart her. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENNY!!! WELL THATS ALL FOR NOW FOLKS!!! Love ya Louie

So today Jill called and woke me up at like 9:30. I took her some Hello Kitty stuff i got her for Graduation. Then we went to starbucks cuz it rocks like crazy!! Then we decided since it is JENNY'S 18TH BIRTHDAY we would go wake her up. So i put some pants on my head ahd walked around to the back of her house to knock on the window but i am too short and i couldn't reach it!!! It sucks like hell to be short. So then she calle Jills cell phone and answered the door. Stayed there for like a hour and then we went back to Jills house and Chilled and then we decided we were hungary so we went and ate at Quiznos mmmmm.... tasty!! Well now i am waiting for caleb to come over i think i might work on my scrapbook a lil bit too. Have a super surfer of a day!!!!

AST:
movie you saw = Shrek 2 or Miracle i don't remember
movie you bought = Miracle for Caleb
song you listened to = Ass and Titties
song that was stuck in your head = shake that moneky
cd you listened to = J.Lo
person you've called = Jill
person that's called you = My MOMMY
tv show you've watched = Pimp my ride
person you were thinking of = Caleb Edward Johnson
D0:
you have a crush on someone = Yes
you believe in online dating = Thats gay
others find you attractive = don't think so
you want more piercings = yes my b. button
you like cleaning = hello no
you like roller coasters = No No NO
you write in cursive or print = Print
F0R 0R AGAINST:
long distance relationships = Dont dig them personally but hey do what ya gotta do man
using someone = I don't think it is right
suicide = Gotta do what ya gotta do if thats what ya want.
killing people = against
teenage smoking = i don't care, only killing yourself
driving drunk = I CARE now your killing others
gay/lesbian relationships = It is up to the person. Live you life the way you feel fit
soap operas = Like passions
HAVE Y0U:
ever cried over a girl = can't say i have
ever cried over a boy = yeah, many times
ever lied to someone = sure i have
ever been in a fist fight = Nope
WHAT:
hair products do you use = Pantene Pro V
shoes do you wear = Docs, and flips
are you scared of = Losing another person that is close to me...
NUMBER:
of times I have been in love? I don't know I know this is love and I have never felt this way before so I am going to go with just one
of times I have had my heart broken? alot
of hearts I have broken? i don't know probably just one
of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? honor roll a few times
of scars on my body? a ton
of things in my past that I regret? way to many
D0 PEOPLE THINK Y0U ARE:
pretty = can't tell ya i don't know
funny = yea i have my moments
hot = uh no
friendly = depending on who you ask
amusing = yea
ugly = yea i have been told
loveable = yesum
caring = yeppers
sweet = maybe
dorky = YES
FAVORITE:
5 letter word = CALEB...only 5 letter word i can think of
Actor/actress = lets say...... i don't know lindsay lohan nice name
Candy = anything chewy
Cartoon = The flintstones what a classic
Cereal = none
Chewing gum = Big RED
Color(s) = PINK
Day of week = ones i don't have to work on
Least fave day = umm.... ones i work
Flower = hibiscus and pink roses and white roses
Jello flavor = umm strawberry
Jewelry = Silver
Special skills/talents = i don't have any
PERSON WH0 LAST:
Slept in your bed = ME
Saw you cry = Probably my mom cuz i cried tonight
Made you cry = who knows i cry on my own alot
You went to the movies with: well actually it was a piston game but it was at the movie theater...i went with jill, travis, ashley, missy, lindsay, and tasha.
Yelled at you = mom
Sent you an email = caleb
HAVE Y0U EVER:
Said "I love you" and meant it? = Yea today I love you!!!
Gone out in public in your pajamas = yeah
Kept a secret from everyone = no me keep a secret ha
Planned your week based on the TV Guide = no.
Been on stage = graduatin and dance back in the day
Been to New York = no but i am goin to visit jenny
Hawaii=i wish
China = nope
Canada = nope
Europe = nope
Asia = nope some day though
South = south what
Australia = no
Wished you were the opposite sex =yes when it comes to my fav time of the month
What time is it now? 11:30 pm
THIS 0R THAT:
Apples or bananas? = apples
Blue or red? = blue
Walmart or target? = target
Spring or Fall? = spring
Summer or Winter: summer
Trampolines or swimming pools: pools
RANDOM:
What are you gonna do after you finish this? = talk
What was the last meal you ate? = bennigans
Are you bored? =yes
Last noise you heard? = phone ringing
Last smell you sniffed? = ummm food
OTHER INFO:
Criminal record = nope i am not like some people
Do you speak any other languages? uh no
Last book you read = i don't read
Name some of your favorite things in your bedroom? = my bed and my picture frames of all my wonderful friends
Worst feeling in the world = losing someone your close to
Who you love = My mom and dad, my wonderful girls I LOVE YA'LL and CALEB I HEART U VAVE
YOU:
How old do you look? = Like 12
How old do you act? = my age i'm assuming
Glasses/Contacts = glasses
Braces: i use to
Do you have any pets? = FLUFFSTER
What makes you happy? =Caleb and my Friends
What upsets you? = alot of shit
FINISH THE SENTENCE:
I Love = CALEB EDWARD JOHNSON
I Miss = MY GRANDMA'S
I Wish = this feeling will last forever
I Hope = he loves me as much as i do him....
I'm Annoyed by = hmmm... Jill, Jenny wanna fill this blank in ***
I Am = so damn bored
I Want to be = a millionaire
I Would Never = do alot of the shit i have done again
I'd Rather = be like on a lake
I Am Tired of = Peoples shit

Love ya goodnight

Thank you Jenny for making my Journal look awesome!!! You rock HARD CORE!!!

Today I woke up and went to calebs house to do some shit for his open house!! I heart him much!! Then we went to saginaw so I could pick up some shorts and some stuff for my buddy JILL!!! Then we went to benigans and i requested not to have Patty she is scary A hhhh Right now i am in a bad mood so i'll check ya later love louie

Today me and caleb are going to my cabin for our one month anniversary how god damn romantic huh!!! Its gonna be like 90 degrees today holy shit what in the world ya gonna do when it is that damn hot! Well gotta get jettin have a good one!

so i have a journal now hope ya dig it ya'll